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salam readers,

ade somehing yang bila kita tak nak fikir, then sibukkan diri sesibuk mungkin dan bila balek rumah takde ape buat, rehat-rahat saje the things come back debating crazily n mind, so irritated!

perlu ke menderatubuh badan supaya bekerja selama mungkin dan balek hanya tidur tanpa memikirkan ape-ape dan bangun pagi pergi kerja, dan berulang kali perjalanan hidupnye itu namenye melarikan diri masalah yang memang tak kan ade penyelesaiannye

hey, stop debating there!

berdenyut kepala tau tak haish

tapi itulah namenye kehidupan. mane ade life yang begitu perfect, kale ade pon di sorga sane.kalo cari dekat dunia sekarang neh memangtakde la. theres a thing do not follow as you wish, theres a thing u do not know tomorrow what will happen. everything is not happen according to your wills, it is Allah wills.

redha is the correct action. Apepon terjadi is already planned. sila belajar menerima dengan hati terbuka. crying will not change everything either thinking too much is not good for your health. Sila berbahagia kerana dengan itu saya akan bahagia. Do not cry too much, its make me sick inside. Please live happily and be healthy too, theres only my wish.im sorry i cant be there when you need me to share of what you feel. im sorry if im too selfish with my self ,without take care of you lately. im sorry if im not able to help you to reduce the pain that you carry on everyday. im sorry im not being that good. i just wish to be happy. happy with everything. your happiness make me happy too. u are the one that i really love in this world mom, u know right?

dear readers,

kehidupan sekarang memang tersangat penat. and i need to start adapting wearing spectacles now since my eyes really give me chills a few days lately. Must wear that thing even i dun want to wear it. okay, sila pakai *ulang 100 kali*

masa pon berlalu dengan sangat pantas. sangat pantas hingga menakutkan diri sendiri bila sedar bangun dari tidur dah berumur 40 tahun, rase semalam baru umur 24 tahun *dasyat tak*

takut juga, bukan sikit-sikit, tapi banyak-banyak. takut bila dah sedar rupenya dah mati.

bila sedar je tengok rupenye dah di kafankan.

tapi hari-hari sekarang neh berlalu dengan sangat pantas.

rasa banyak lagi tak sempurna. solat, mengaji, tanggungjawab pada mak ayah and little sis and bro, need take care of them. must. should give them the best. take care and guide them to be useful people. take care of their emotion. been there when they need someone to rely on. able to share everything with  me. able to give them advice.

masih belum sempurna.

who?

-me-