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Sometimes you find yourself trying to let go of something But it's like, you have been swimming on the ocean for a very very long time And you feel like you belong there You are one with the waves The warmth of the water And your body moves in sync with the ocean And you swim around just trying to stay afloat Then you get tired and you start to drown And you swim back to land When you get there you just feel so heavy because you lost touch with gravity for so long And you collapse on the beach as you try to find balance again And then your feet finds gravity You stand up and you look at the horizon one last time And you just know that no matter how beautiful the sea was And how good it made you feel It was never yours to keep And somedays you'll miss it, you know And you feel yourself moving with the waves and you dream of diving in Then you realize your feet was meant for land And not cut out for the ocean Maybe you're meant to climb trees, or hike hills, or just run reall...

Let go You have done best your best  In case no one told you You are amazing for the way you are Even the whole word deny

3.36 PM I decided to take 10 minutes break. Its friday and about 2 hours and half, my shift will end.   Do not let your body suffer on those things that you do not have the control.  Kept feeding this to the brain. I find myself worrying a lots of thing, and its effect my health. To the point ... Its not good, i know. I wish i have the stop button for this. Suddenly, my line manager walk in in this pantry for lunch. Its awkward.  See you again. Dont get hurt, take care.

In order to run  I have to endure and get back up But there are so many parts of reality that so hard to bear It feels like I’m being forced off my feet, onto the ground Im trying my best to bear it because i hate to lose So why is it getting hard for me as i try harder?

Terjumpa satu video recommend by You tube. Decided to up the video here. The lyric, the beats hit me hard. A reminder when i got lost. Sometimes she comes here often to remind her old self.

Why  to find the meaning of life  has been changed to  she turned  her cant’s into cans and her dreams into plans. If Allah wills.  I have been thinking to change this for a while. I had change in mind. To keep finding the meaning of life has made me lost in direction. It was a dark mossy forest. I have nowhere to go, I kept lost in searching for something that I never knew. It is complicated to describe in words but yeahh forget it. Time has moving fast as its pleased. Soon 2017 will close its chapters. Be happy in whatever decision you choose. Have a faith :) Thailand, october 2017.

Segalanya bermula dengan rasa pelik. Stuffy. Rasa tak selesa. So aku decide to break the moment dengan menaip. Hari ni maal hijrah. Roomates semua ada hal masing masing. Tinggal aku dan housemate sorang lagi yang dah tido dalam bilik dia. Aku? Sedang mengemas rumah. Kerajinan tetiba baru datang. Rasa pelik? Ye. Baru lepas discussion satu trip yang bakal datang. Member tak berapa ok, reply ala kadar. Buat aku rasa pelik dan tak selesa. Rupanya ada masalah dengan screen telefon. Oh ok. Sudah lama tidak merasa "me time". Duduk berseorangan. Banyak benda datang dalam kepala minta difikir. Terutamanya topik yang sentiasa ditanya kepada diri sendiri akan tujuan hidup. Adakah hidup yang aku lalui sekarang, melalui laluan yang betul? Adakah aku mengerjakannya secara ala kadar? Mencari jawapan yang terus berputar.